is adorable. and i didnt know what else to call it.
i had another terrible dream!!!! first of all i married this old guy and didnt turn into this nordic goddess like i was supposed to. apparently he was supposed to take MY last name. anyway. i didnt turn into a red headed vixen. and thats all that counts but THEN i had to go to the bath room and all the pathways to the house were laden with huge bugs being attacked by ants. at first it was just a lady bug and some bees. and they were on the ground and hanging from the ceiling. ugh terrible. then it was HUGE TERRIBLE spiders (i loathe spiders) and they wanted so badly to be free so they would try to reach out and touch me. it was terrifying. and this young cowboy type guy who loved me was trying to help me. it was bad. bad bad bad
the only way i can get rid of scary dreams is if, when i wake up, i try to fix it. like with this one i thought that if i finally got past all the bugs (shudder) and got into the house i would grab 2 huge pans and SMASH THEM ALL. i feel better now.
i have been thinking lately. i talk to much. like when people ask me how i am i go in depth. i shouldnt do that! where did i learn to do that?! its rude. and midway through this speech i realize that it is rude and i stop and i am so caught up with the fact that i was just being so rude that i forget to ask THEM questions which is the courteous thing to do. ugh. it terrible. im terrible. i need to focus on other people. and not me. i have been trying so hard to work on it. cuz its not about me. its about me serving other people.
i never thought i was selfish until lately when i realize that i talk about me a lot. i always counter someones story with a story about me. THATS SO RUDE! why do i do that? i will never understand. but i WILL stop.
i think this blog has helped actually. it has been a place for me to give the interwebs a change to listen to my stories that i would be forcing on other people in real life. so from now on i will TRY MY HARDEST to keep that story in and listen to them and if need be, let it out on here.Labels: bugs, goddess, katilette, selfish, spiders |
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